Life Through Time and Experience

Through time and experience, let nothing hold us back from the moment of joy we deserve.

Being present in my marriage has taught me what happiness really feels like. Not the kind that rushes or performs, but the kind that settles into your bones and says, this feels safe, this is so real.

Learning my husband—my first true love—has been a lesson in not wasted time, not circling doubt, and not entertaining words without action. We made a clear decision about us, and we stood firmly in it.

I’ve known men who said “she’s the one” out loud, yet never moved their feet. 

My husband said nothing—but he carried “she’s the one” in his heart. I saw it in his face. I felt it in the way he showed up. 

He proved his love in actions, consistently and loudly, without ever needing to announce it.

Not too long ago I admit, I’m shy when it comes to him, still. But my husband speaks his feelings of love from the rooftops with how he protects, chooses, and commits. 

I am deeply in love with my man. Every day, he gives me new reasons. After just a little over seven months of getting to know each other, we were all in. Not a second longer did he wait before carrying out the conversation that had already been answered in his spirit: Will you marry me?

Of course I was sure—but I was also nervous. You're Chris Brown, a global superstar… are you sure? Before I could even gather the courage to ask that question three or four times, just before Christmas, Chris started making appearances with a new wedding band on his hand, with intention, he has made moves with clear intentions he plans to take care of my bruised heart. He already knew I was sure, just carrying uncomfortable thoughts of uncertainty —could I be too much for him, but shortly after talking it over with my mother in law—I took a deep breath. My heart had arrived and my mind caught up altogether.

We both were ready for forever. Still, we walk while holding uninvited trauma—old experiences that sometimes make us unsteady. But we walk together. Supporting one another through change, healing in real time, choosing love without doubt. 

That is married life. That is presence. And that is joy. This is our choice, to choose each other. Even with our bruises.